Lily Allen has stated she considered taking heroin while supporting fellow vocalist Miley Cyrus on trip.
Allen, 35, stated she understood she had struck rock bottom while supporting Cyrus on her 2014 Bangerz tour.
She told DJ Fat Tony on his The Recovery podcast that she had found herself back on the road due to an absence of cash following the births of her children.
She said: “I resembled 14 stone and just did not feel like a pop star at all so I began taking this drug called adderall, which is like speed, to lose the weight, and I got addicted to this drug due to the fact that it made me invincible and I might work actually long hours and be all individuals I was needed to be.
” And then I ended up on tour in America supporting Miley Cyrus.
” It was when she was doing Wrecking Ball and the Bangerz tour and it was a highly sexualised trip.
” I had just invested the last 3 years pushing children out. It could not have been less what I seemed like.”
Allen stated she had actually not been a supporting act before, adding: “I was supporting this woman who was much more youthful and more attractive than I felt and I just began acting out in all way of methods.
” I began cheating on my other half and I had constantly really drunk alcohol to take the edge off of the drugs, and then I realised I was getting up in the early morning and downing those mini bottles of vodka or whisky or whatever was left, without the drugs anymore.
” I was believing: ‘I believe I have actually got a drinking problem’. I remember being in LA and thinking: ‘None of this acting out is working any more. Maybe I need to try heroin’.
” However … I had remained in a scene where I had seen what happens to people who utilize heroin, and understood that when that thought popped into my head it was time to face my demons, and that was about five years earlier. And I began recovery.”
Allen stated she began utilizing online dependency recovery tool The Rooms, however included: “I got tidy and at that time I wasn’t really committed to the programme as a lifelong thing. I simply wished to get to 6 months so a minimum of I understand I can stop this when I require to.
“At six months I began drinking once again and practically immediately I lost everything. I lost my marriage, I lost my home that I had worked for 10 years to purchase.
“My profession began sinking and I lost all my friends, I didn’t have any of my relationships anymore.
“I was so resentful therefore mad all the time, I really felt that the world owed me stuff and I got the raw end of the deal. Which went on for another 4 years and then I wound up back in The Spaces again.”